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Dreaming

5/19/04

Last week I dreamed about Mia.

I haven't seen that ho in about four years.  The last few times I did see her, it had been like pulling teeth to get her to come over or talk to me . . . and it had been obvious for some time before then that for whatever reason she was trying to distance herself from me.  I have theories--most of them having to do with her wishing to pull away any associations with people who knew that Reuben wasn't the first man to have ever captured her heart, an illusion she really liked preserving--but I don't want to get into that.  The point of this is that we're not friends anymore, and it wasn't my choice.

So I had this dream that she was suddenly in the back room at my work.  She hugged me really hard, but then she acted like she hadn't been incommunicado for years and years.  I kind of wanted to be a jerk and tell her to leave me alone, and be like "who the fuck do you think you are, thinking you can come back in my life with the way you just cut me off?" but I figured that was pointless.  And plus I had missed her.  So I started acting a little bit sad and weird, asking her if she knew my e-mail address and telling her to please e-mail me.  She kind of did this eye-rolling thing and reminded me that she DID live in the same town.  (Oh, apparently she was moving back here to G'ville.)  She was like, "Oh, I don't need to e-mail you, I can just call you, I live here now."  After I woke up from that I was thinking that was weird because when she DID live in town (after we stopped being roomies), she never friggin' called me.  And she e-mailed me now and then, but it was always because she wanted something.

And then last night I dreamed that I got attacked by dogs.

I realized I actually have had a lot of dreams about dogs harassing me in various ways.  Usually they don't actually hurt me, but they tend to not want to leave me alone, and it's always someone else failing to keep the dog under control that results in their attacks.  This dream had me trying to get one of my stuffed animals out of the vicious dog's mouth, and it wouldn't let go.  Also I think it was laying on me and wouldn't let me up.  And the dreams are always set in someone else's house.  Generally when the dogs attack me whoever's dog it is either isn't present or tells me the dog's attack was my fault for doing something or not doing something, or they act like I shouldn't mind being attacked.  One time they were these like eight-foot Egyptian-looking dogs guarding a door.  There had been other dogs chasing me but I got out of the way by flying over them.  Unfortunately when I tried to escape into another room those huge Egyptian dogs blocked the way and bit me.  That was a scary dream.  I remember I once had a dream that I was visiting my mom and I told her before I went to bed not to let the dogs in my room and not to smoke in there while I was there.  And then in the dream I woke up and my mom was in a chair right by the bed smoking, and there were two dogs in the bed with me.  Weird.

I don't really like dogs.


Notes:

Dude, that is so weird... Last night I had a dream about someone in college that I have lost touch with... I kid you not. It is sad though that Mia has not kept in contact with you. [Freder]


Dogs, huh? I'd hate to tell you what I dream about at night. Just kidding.


moop. It hurts to love jerky people. [Meggie]


I hate all dogs. Except mine. And my best friend's. Oh, and Newfoundlands. The rest suck for no real reason. That's too bad about Mia. Her loss though. EVERYONE WHO LOVES IVY JOIN HER FANLISTING (owned by me :D) http://ivy.splendifirous.org [katqueen]

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